The Holidays Can Be Depressing When Single
December 28, 2011
I don’t consider myself someone who needs a relationship. Do I want to be in one? Yes, of course. I love the companionship, and the closeness that is shared between two people, but I don’t need a relationship to be happy.
This Christmas was my first Christmas where I wasn’t at least talking to someone since 2003, so it has been a while. The couple days leading up to and a day or two after I was really depressed and down, it was a sadness I had not felt in a long time. The feeling was almost the equivalent of having your heart torn out; it felt like a break up.
I was busy, saw a lot of family and friends. Seeing my family actually made it worse, but my friends kept my mine off of the loneliness. Ex’s and past flings ran through my head, even the ones that I didn’t want to work out, I thought about it and thought, maybe we could work even though deep down I knew I was only thinking that because I was lonely.
I guess it is the family and togetherness that is promoted and displayed during the holidays that make it really awful being single. I never in my wildest dreams thought I would have been that depressed being single. During the holidays, if you’re single, remain strong and lean on those you are closest to and never settle or relapse for something you know would be for the worst.
